I wanted to get a Ramones shirt for Blake but I could never decide what size and of course, I wanted him to be able to wear it forever and that would be impossible. I couldn't buy 10 shirts in 10 different sizes. The choices caused me way too much anxiety (which is so stupid, I know) so I decided to just skip buying him one altogether.
There was also the fact that it may end up at Ashley's house (Blake's mother) and Ashley not knowing how much a Ramones shirt meant to me may give it to Goodwill (God forbid) when he outgrew it.
No, I couldn't buy him a Ramones shirt. There was just too much anxiety swimming around it. Too many "what ifs". (Aren't you glad you don't live like this? Spending so much time over a stupid shirt?)
Now tonight we were in Petsmart and I spied this little gem. I have no idea what it cost but it didn't matter. I could pick one size and it would fit Manny for forever and ever and ever.
and so now I'm sitting here and drinking a beer (a very dark beer. I only like dark beer) and feeling very relaxed and happy.
Someone I love is wearing a Ramones shirt.
Thank you Petsmart.